What I Do
I'm a character designer and I specialize in animals and beasties. I can do people too but they're not as good as my animals in my opinion. Backgrounds can also be iffy but I'm working on it.
Most of my work is done digitally but I also like to sketch in pen.
( work examples )
Can't find something you like? Fear not.
To have a look at more work, you can visit my website at www.doodlingdragon.com
Just one today. I can't paint. I cry now.
One more. Still can't paint. I continue crying.
Having another one of those don't know if I should be drawing for a living and if I'm being stubborn and maybe I should be writing or doing talk shows or something or another that I can actually do and won't struggle so much with.
That is a badly structured sentence.
In other news I have DJ hero. It's my christmas present. Early one. Since I'll be in the philippines during christmas.
I attended a story course on friday. It was ok I guess, a lot of what the lecturer said can be applied to drawing/animation so that's good I suppose. I can't write serious shit. It ends up frivolous and farcical.
I mean, listen to this.
"Well, he's dead now. Pass me the shovel. Did you bring the garlic?"
"Aye guv'ner! I brought what ye asked for; th' garlic, th' taters, th' sweet onions-"
"My good man have you lost your mind? We are not about to make vegetable soup, not in a cemetery of all places."
"But guv'ner it makes for good eating and it does get cold out 'specially at night with the fog and the damp and the-"
"We are in the business of warding vampires, not soup kitchenry. Now if you could just hand me the shovel..."
... I'm a terrible writer and I have such little self esteem and belief in myself and my own work it's incredible how I get by everyday. It's incredible in itself how I manage to pick up a pen and continue drawing the way I do. And it's this terrible mindset that's keeping me from improving. That and I'm terribly critical of myself. How does one improve when you don't quite believe that you have what it takes to make it out there.
I guess one has to pretend to believe in it. I think.
Um. My job searching has not gone very well. No replies.
Commission work is slow. My lack of colour sense is making things difficult also. Generic work tends to sell. I don't quite want to go there. ... But I might have to if thats what the market wants.
I need to find some direction in my life now. Before I get too lost. And maybe go crazy from it all.
I may have bought too much food. o.o
12 days in tokyo to look for animation,museums,toys,books,inspiration,s
Wish me luck so I don't get lost on the subway. :3
( One more. )
I am feeling like that now. A little lost. A little arty. Lookin' at schools to register for. Checking my commissions. Reading my old notes and going through animation lectures and philosophy. Being inspired. Being tired.
Man I better sketch in tokyo. I bought a small sketchbook specifically for that. And I should have enough time to blow an afternoon or two in a coffee shop and people watch.
( It's an early halloween, I think. )
( one more. )
Today was my last day at my job. It went ok, I guess. Though now I'm feeling kinda lost and not sure what to do.
The Canada thing has gone quiet again, for now.
I am considering printing t shirts/buttons and doing commissions to stay afloat for a while. I have considered schooling again. And I kinda like the idea of having a job; it's nice to be self sufficient for the most part.
Gonna have to look through the hiring companies and blast my portfolio at them. Yanno they say to put down in your resume the position you want to apply for? And don't be wishy washy about it? I don't think they want to hire character designers.
Is this me being picky then? Not being altogether too keen to do other things? Maybe, maybe. I don't mind learning how to do other things, sure, that's important and useful too but what about the main focus of the job?
I guess I still gotta try anyway. Never know what might happen. As long as it's not another fiasco like my last job.
It's hard being an artist. And sticking to ideals. Sigh.
I post some work here. I did some gestures. I plan to do more.
( I gotta feeling. )
Finishing my month with the toy shop soon, then it's a short break and time to move on.
Things to consider :
Whether to continue schooling and if so where. Whether I can afford it. And more importantly, if I can get in.
Finding another art job that hopefully has drawing involved; if I'm going to get an art job I'd like to improve my current skill set on the way and hopefully the job is more in line with drawing than lets say, rotoscoping.
Consider printing shirt designs/badges to sell online.
Which can be done in conjunction with doing commissions. I need to figure paypal out for that.
And as much as I hate having to rely on external sources regarding something as important as my future, I'm really hoping/praying/banking on the toronto apprenticeship to work. It's the only shot I've got at the moment to be sent out of the country to live/work/learn and not have to pay anything for it. Except perhaps the bond when I come back home but that I think is a small price to pay for the experiences and things I will learn while in Toronto.
I hope I hear from them again soon.
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